Written Testimonials

"I don’t even know where to begin to share my experience, my appreciation and how thankful I am to have met these amazing women, their team and to have been part of the Flow Life Retreat. It all began from encouraging a dear friend of mine to explore the benefits of mushrooms as I have used them in the past as well as micro dosed. I believe wholeheartedly in the magic they hold. He ended up coming across the Flow Life Retreat and obligated himself to attend a men's retreat. Upon his return he had nothing but amazing things to share about his experience and this is where Flow Life became part of my journey.

At the same time I was continuing a perpetual cycle in my life that kept me stuck in a bad place. I have struggled for YEARS with some intense guilt and grief surrounding the death of my son to cancer in 2008, the loss of my marriage, and in that current moment I had just ended a relationship with a man that was an emotional abuser that turned physical. I was NOT in a good place. The realization that l had lost myself became very prevalent. I was struggling with my purpose and my worth which led to extremely poor choices in men, and I attracted the very thing I was trying to run from in my own world. It was my turn to let go and change my story.

I went on the Flow Life website and saw there was a women’s retreat on 02/22/24. 222 is a very powerful number in my vortex as it is my late son's birthday, a triplicate number and a number I have worn on my body in permanent ink for years. Without hesitation I booked it completely unaware it was in Colorado. Rather than letting fear dictate my choices, I embraced it and decided to take this opportunity to take a solo trip to enjoy some much needed time with ME. I gave myself a couple days prior to the retreat and a couple days after to offer myself some grace and most of all set my intentions of why I was there and to know I was leaving a different person. I had no idea what those intentions would lead to and I could have never imagined I would be leaving Colorado with the experience I had or the women I finally let myself be~! As I said when I started this testimonial I had NO idea how powerful this journey would become. I entered the doors to the retreat on 02/22/24 as one woman and left on 02/25/24 as another. There are no words to describe what I experienced less than life hanging and epic. My intentions of what I wanted entering that house were VERY clear and I was incredibly committed to the process. These women who so strongly believe in the power of the medicine they are sharing are AMAZING and I felt so unbelievably supported and safe, alongside the other women that were there for their own reasons, I was in a place where the process to embrace the journey was secure, beautiful and purposeful. I gave myself permission with intent to finally be taken to a place to let go and release unfiltered emotion, fear, pain, worthlessness and guilt which led me to realize how to love again and to find my HAPPY. I have changed my story and it feels PHENOMENAL. Eva, Dream, Hummingbird, Jessica and the rest of the staff are absolutely GORGEOUS souls with their unwavering support alongside me has allowed me to walk a new path and my life has been FOREVER changed. I have found my HAPPY and it feels AMAZING~!!!!

I hope you make the choice to commit to this journey because the possibilities of what you can gain from it are endless. I can only hope that even if you experience a small fraction of what I have that your journey through this portal we call life will be forever transformed. Thank you will never be powerful enough words to say to all of you at Flow Life."

Much love and appreciation, Beth R

May 22, 2023

"I am seeing through new eyes today and feeling with a new heart. The Flow Retreat is the best gift I have ever given to myself. I rediscovered and became acquainted with aspects of my essence that I didn’t know existed or had long since forgotten. I can do hard things. I can push through old beliefs, judgements and hurts and step into a place where breath and Light become wings of transformation. I made the conscious choice to commit all the way and the rewards are beyond my imagination. On the heels of one of the most challenging chapters of my life, I am renewed and ready to leave behind lifelong stories of victimhood and embrace the love of myself and others. I am learning to fly, and I am preparing to soar. I found me in a new tribe of souls walking the same path as I with courage, dignity, and grace. We are all glitter and gold, laughter, and tears, nourished by our vulnerability and our willingness to show up uncensored, raw, and real. I know what authentic beauty looks and feels like. It is in the acceptance of everything and everyone that joy and peace reside, and it creates a palette of choices and possibilities with colors I was unable to see before. The backdrop is brilliant, bold, subtle, and nuanced. Holding onto pain creates limited vision and stifled experience. Stepping into a safe place where the heart, mind and body can open is essential to begin the journey out of darkness. I have searched for a way out of my inner prison for as long as I can remember. I consumed drugs and alcohol, co-dependent relationships, food, and negativity to ease my pain and suffering only to find it created more layers of distance from my soul’s essence. I broke through many of those layers this past weekend and found the courage to continue the journey towards freedom. I am strong, capable, loving and fun. I like me. I am worthy and valuable. I have gifts to share with others. I don’t have to be perfect to have an impact! Love is quietly, gently, patiently waiting for all of us. Its whispers are worth listening to." - Carolan, Colorado, 66-years-old

"The retreat was more healing than I could have imagined.  A month later, I still feel the benefits and my outlook has changed tremendously. To give a little back story on my situation; I am a 39-year-old female who has had some major struggles in life, particularly in my late teens and twenties. I didn’t realize it until these past few years but I have had PTSD from a prolonged physically abusive relationship in my early twenties. I hid it from everyone, partially because we were both hooked on opiates and eventually other drugs. Safe to say I was a hot mess in those years, and I am truly lucky to be alive. I ultimately became clean in my late 20s but still abused myself in other ways, particularly in romantic relationships. I finally started to make better choices in my 30s but still carried around the grief and shame of my youth like a bag of rocks. I have tried therapy, anti-depressants/meds, acupuncture, I could go on, but you get the idea! I didn’t realize how much my past trauma was affecting my current life, especially my sensory issues and possibly even my chronic pain.

I took a chance with the retreat, after much research on the subject. From the beginning, Eva was warm, kind, and helpful. She organized the retreat quite well, from the moment I hopped on my first phone call with her. She really makes you feel seen and heard while sharing such valuable wisdom. At the retreat, I felt the same love and care from Dream, her co-facilitator. The entire experience was therapeutic from start to finish and I felt part of a close community. The other guests were a large part of my healing process, and the location in Colorado was stunning. The cold plunge therapy, breathwork, and sound healing were so powerful, and I will continue to incorporate them into my life when possible. The sound bath was done by Hummingbird, and it was so magical. The actual medicine journey was a struggle at first, but I fully expected it to be and that is part of “doing the work” in my case. It felt as if years of repressed emotions were released from my body and that was my intention. I was even visited by loved ones that have passed and that was such a wonderful and supportive feeling. Dream and Eva were so loving and helpful during the roughest moments and intuitively knew what each of us needed. There are so many nuggets of gold from the medicine journey that I could go on for pages but overall, it left me with feelings of peace, connectedness, and contentment. I do not feel the same recurrent upsetting memories flooding my brain as I did before.  I feel as though I have a deeper understanding and appreciation of my life and story. I do still have rough moments, but they do not seem as heavy and I’m also able to regulate my emotions and nervous system much easier. Healing is an ongoing process and I feel much happier to be alive than I did before. I now feel more open to the possibility of a more serious romantic relationship which hasn’t been the case in years. I also feel a renewed sense of inspiration to create more art, and connect with like-minded individuals, and I have faith in my future. Essentially, I feel more like my true self! Thank you, Eva, I am so lucky to have had this opportunity." - Erin, Art Teacher

"If it is the right time for you to attend this retreat, you will know.  The trajectory of my life has been changed for the better by saying "YES" to this adventure.  I was supported, prepared, well-informed, and encouraged through each and every step of this journey--by Eva, and by the people she brought in over the course of the weekend to teach, educate, assist, trip-sit, prepare meals, and hold space for deep conversations and life expanding epiphanies.  The psilocybin journey was beyond anything I imagined, and was one of the most beautiful life, love, and universe affirming experiences I have ever had. Ever. Wherever you are finding yourself at this moment, there will be something for you to discover about yourself, your lived experiences, and your place in the universe through this mind-expanding, heart opening journey. Remember: you will know. "

• Jane, Washington, 54-years-old

"My name is Lynda, I am 58 years old and have two grown daughters. Like everyone in his life I have experienced many different types of trauma. Familial indifference, multiple sclerosis, narcissistic relationships, losing loved ones, and sexual abuse to name a few.

I felt stuck and unable to move forward in a positive direction. I researched all different ways of “fixing” myself, and neither SSRI’s nor traditional therapy were helping me make progress. I discovered Eva and Flow Life and immediately felt that this might be what I needed.

Those few days with amazing women have changed my life. I feel lighter, I have forgiven those who have wronged me, and I am looking forward to my future with hope instead of fear.

If you are like me, stepping out of your comfort zone is not easy. Be brave. I never thought I could be so courageous, and with Eva and the help from the group, I feel a renewed sense of optimism. I can do anything, and so can you. Step into your flow, and take the leap. You will be so grateful that you did.

"I attended Eva’s Flow Life Retreat in August 2022. I was referred by my therapist who had seen a remarkable change in one of her other patients who also attended Eva’s retreat. My therapist witnessed a tremendous shift in this other patient’s ability to see and care for their trauma. Trusting her judgement and looking for new and different ways to approach managing my PTSD, I decided to attend the retreat, but not before researching psilocybin, its therapeutic benefits, and Eva’s approach to using them.

It is totally understandable for any person considering using a psychedelic for the first time to feel an uneasiness or scare about what may happen to them under the influence of the drug. For one with a history of trauma, it may feel even more unsafe or dangerous. While your “adult mind” may feel a confidence or felt-knowing of safety, curiosity, and desire to improve your situation, your more frightened parts may very understandably feel that the prospect of undergoing this journey is too risky, too much, or “just not worth it” – any justification to avoid the danger of the unknown or of feeling out of control.

Whatever benefits you may get out of using mushrooms, and of which there are many well researched reports to be found, I want to speak to how one may approach a journey such as this. In a place where there may already be some trepidation – using mind altering drugs! – the re-lived fears spoken by traumatized parts may make approaching using psychedelics, like psilocybin, a “bridge too far”. Having experienced this retreat for myself, I can tell you there are few people in this world as loving and caring in what they do. Eva and those she has gathered to work with her have the caring nature and experience necessary to provide a safe, loving environment for those looking to take this journey.

In one of the darkest moments of my own trip, I recall having this comforting thought: “I am in a safe place. Eva and her team have created a safe container here and I am safe.”

If you want to explore yourself and you are interested in how psilocybin may help, the Flow Life retreat is a fantastic way to do this. You will be guided and protected and come out the other side with an experience unlike any other. Going in and coming out, Eva and her team will support and assist, but ultimately it will be up to you to decide how you use this opportunity and the information you glean from your journey. I can attest that you will experience a loving, safe, and welcoming environment, from which you may then be able to learn and grow.

- Sean T, San Diego, CA

"My experience with this journey! ...

My motivation for coming to this retreat was the thought, the hope that I could get a shift or find a different way to heal myself/look at myself. Not 100% sure what that would look like but I was desperate. I have spent the last decade in therapy and unable to find that shift, to find that true essence of myself. My identity of who I was.

My identity was surrounded by trauma, major depression, panic, anxiety and such a loss of connection to myself and others.

My experience of saying yes to me, and yes to the Flow Life retreat has been life changing. My journey with the medicine was not an easy one. I truly believe that the fungi knew exactly what I needed. My worst fear was put right in front of me and my journey was to understand that I could find my way and that I could let others help me find my way. Thank you universe for putting Eva into my life. Through the beautiful four days that I spent at the retreat has changed my life forever. The connection I feel with myself, to the women that Eva brings in and to Eva herself has to be one of the greatest gifts that I have ever received. The passion, care, love and pure joy of life from Eva and all the women who were there to help was profound. 

For the first time in a very very long time I can separate myself from my past. That dark cloud that has hovered over me for decades has lifted.  The incredible thing is that more and more of me just keeps on revealing itself. More and more new paths are opening.  - CC, 50 Something from California

"The Flow Life Retreat was amazing! Lots of great info and presenters. The cold water therapy was the bomb!! Many physical & emotional releases and ah-ha moments during the mushroom journey. And just a knowing during the journey that everything was going to be ok. A knowing that I was on the right path. That things were finally going to start flowing for me too. Eva is incredible at making people feel safe and supported during the entire process - from the beginning when you are deciding if this is the right next step for you all the way through integrating the whole experience back into your daily life. She is genuine, loving, and has a true gift of helping others progress along on their journeys!"

-Jeanette, a Mother from Iowa